last word she said 'gampang' ? oh-oh

assalamualaikum...

tonight my eyes still doesn't want to be close.still fresh and so many ideas come out and i need to capture in one second.otherwise,i will loose all.

after 1.3 years, only today i could realise on what i am doing in this entire periods is JUST TRY HARD TO FORGET HIM.and before today i believe that 100 percent i could managed to forget him but it is NOT easy until today....why i said so?He is still able to make my heart beat 1000 times harder to punch a blood on the entire body.

when my best buddy told me that she is excidentally met him with his new girlfriend(still with that lady), normally by right i should be okay but why i feel so sad and again my heart beat so hard to do their job?pumping a blood with a struggled feeling.i feel soooo damn 'good'...

more or less i will try to know his condition whether he is okay with his new girlfriend or they are break up already.heheh...

when i ask whether he saw herself,she answer 'no'.when i ask 'why',she answer this;

and to be honest, i still can't fully forget him until now.of coz before this i am confident with myself to be 'rilek-rilek aje', but now i knew...i still do loving him.

but it is just all right for me to let him be with her new girlfriend coz i believe Allah has someone better for me.only to remind me that we can't simply love others and forget our creator.becoz He is the one who have the power to control our life.

and also i need to seek for a forgiveness from Mr.R coz i've done something wrong and i just can't continuing with this relationship. the worst thing is, i still can't forget the past and i am begging you to look for another person who are suits for you.

may Allah bless on both of you.for this time, i don't think to seek for a love.i only seek for a happiness.family and friends.

wassalam.